Musings about winter and faith

The song in my heart as I awake to my day today is about faith. Wintertime always seems to have that effect on me. I reflect on the way that all of nature rests in winter, grass stops growing beneath the blanket of snow, trees stand bare and still without their leaves, many animals hibernate and flower bulbs lie dormant waiting for the spring sun. All of nature rests, waiting in faith for the season of sun to awaken them all from their sleep.

One of my all time favourite songs is the Rose by Bette Midler. There is one verse that goes... "When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong, just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snows, lies the seed that with the sun's love, in the spring becomes the rose." I love that song. I love the idea of hope and faith that there are seeds of potential within us that in time will blossom into great beauty. Mighty snow falls upon us but we do not rest. The urgency to soar weighs heavy on our chest. Not avalanche, or floods, nor heavy winds prevent Rising powers of strength within us, heaven bent.

A Poem After Two Miscarriages

My heart is heavy again,

I say to a friend,

One day I was happily pregnant,

Then that little baby did ascend.

Like the autumn trees around me,

sheding the leaves that fall,

My body released that baby,

But I wasn't prepared at all.

Now my tears fall unstopping,

the hurt is too big to contain,

My tears fall unstopping,

Like a warm autumn rain.

Two babies now wait for me,

In that divine next world,

I miss them though I never held them,

My little boy and girl.

In June I lost Elijah,

and my heart broke in two.

On Nov. 5th, I lost Mary,

Two children I never knew.

How did this story become mine?

Two babies I'll never hold.

The meaning, they say is divine,

There's a reason I am told.

The night has fallen around me,

But my weeping heart won't rest.

How can I chose to sleep,

With this weight upon my chest?

The Tree of Grace is high and wide,

Our family's love is strong.

God's gift is in the moment,

In the hope of my heart's song.

This dark night embraces me,

But soon the sun will dawn,

Bringing hope of brighter tomorrows,

In the hope of my heart's song.